The past 2 days have been somehow weird and tough at the same time…
The day before yesterday I did a guided meditation on consciousness which resulted in a water crises that brought me to the verge of dehydration – yes, it’s tears I’m talking about.
Yesterday I was restless, impatient and in such a foul mood that my husband pleaded for mercy and asked me to please go to bed and sleep it off – he couldn’t take it any longer. I even lashed out at the cats because they kept leaving muddy footprints in the house…as if I cared about housekeeping! I attributed these violent mood swings to the new homeopathic remedy I took on Tuesday, since thinking that I might be ready for a mental institution was most distressing…
Today I got up and started my day in a “I’m-watching-you mode”, on the lookout for further signs of unbalanced behaviour…however the only thing I could notice was an unusual desire to be outside and revel in the chilly but sunny, glorious day. I then started a lengthy preparation that involved dyazepines, Rescue Remedy, MP3 player, camera, sunglasses, double dose of moisturizer, mobile phone, hat-scarf-gloves-overcoat-MBT shoes-tote bag and here I was, ready to step outside and go for a walk – duration unknown.
Although at first a bit uneasy, I walked for about an hour along the cycling track by the sea, taking in the reflection of the sun in the water, the seagulls, the crisp air and the feel of my muscles working. I thoroughly enjoyed myself and I could have walked longer, but I didn’t want to overdo it. Going from “No way I’m getting out of the house alone” to an hour walk by myself is a huge accomplishment and I’m very proud of it. Flabbergasted, too, I must say.
I also discovered this plant – not much to look at, I’ll admit, but its velvety texture is delightful – I touched it for quite some time!
To sum it up, today I did something that I most definitely never do – something out of my comfort zone – and that’s a way of stirring up the cauldron and increase creativity. I’m curious to see what this little change will bring…
